Monday, January 05, 2009

What's next?

Lately I've been feeling restless and uneasy. I'm beginning to feel like I'm just floating along in this life, with no real direction, or purpose or concrete goals that I'm working towards. It's very easy to get caught up in my son's daily routines and in his constant needs that weeks/months pass and I look back and find that I am beginning to fade. It's easy to get caught up in other people's stories so much that I'm not living out my own. That has been a struggle for me all my life. Lately I've gotten lazy and disorganized. These are my biggest stumbling blocks these days. So I'm taking some time to think, to organize, to dream. I've been floating along for too long now. I need to dive in and see what's next.